Yesterday my therapist encouraged me to consider taking anti-anxiety or anti-depression medication to help me to deal with all this stuff. He's suggested it before and I've resisted. It's not that I'm opposed to these kinds of medications -- most people I know are on one or the other and I've seen genuine results. It's just not for me, not right away. I don't really understand the push for drugs as a tool, especially when I'm actively exploring other options. I need to give these other things - like breathing exercises - a chance first.
Just because I cry during our sessions doesn't mean I'm "depressed" and just because I experience anxiety when I apply the topical medication doesn't mean I'm "anxious." I have had bouts with anxiety here and there, so I definitely know what that feels like. And this isn't that.