Anxiety Overload, part 2.

It's been a crappy couple of days for me. I've been feeling really lonely, I haven't been feeling good physically (the shooting pains are back), and this morning I woke up feeling really anxious. I can't seem to lose this anxious feeling.

My wedding is less than six months away and I can't stop wondering if I'll ever be able to have intercourse. If I'll ever be able to make out without experiencing pain. I don't want my fiance to agree to a life without physical intimacy, but I can't make any promises.

Some days, I have hope. And (more frequently it seems) some days I don't.